The Key to Immortality

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When I first saw this quote, I thought it was perfect. It all made sense, not to die if you have a writer who’s in love with you. But then I started thinking, to see exactly if I understand what’s all about.

I don’t consider myself a writer. I’ve always wanted to be a writer, but it was more like a far away dream, that you’re never actually planning to achieve. You just think that someday, in the future, you’d like to be a writer. But days pass on and you do nothing about it… That’s why I started blogging, to have a sense of writing without actually writing a book or anything. Basically a writer is anyone who writes, right? Although a real writer does more than just putting some words on the paper… The same way a photographer is not anyone who takes a selfie with the phone.

But anyway, I am writing right now, so I can think about the quote from my point of view. Me being the writer, I mean. There was a moment from that period of time when I was just dreaming to become a writer, but didn’t write – which is, before I started this blog – when I actually considered writing about someone, and about love. But it was just a dream of the future. I didn’t write anything, cause why would I? And I’m not going to do it now, either. Cause I’ve changed, and I’ve changed my mind as well.

I decided it was a bad idea to write about a particular person and about a relationship that was, could be, could have been. I don’t know why. It wasn’t the first time when I was thinking about some persons, writing about them, cause I thought I found inspiration in them. But it was just this time when I realised it was wrong. If someone inspires you, it doesn’t mean you should write about them, but about how things changed inside you after receiving inspiration; I suddenly felt that if I was going to write something, it would be about myself, not anyone else. It makes more sense, actually. To write in order to discover yourself, not to describe your vision about some other person, which of course is only your vision, and which may not even be the truth. If you’re writing about yourself, it’s more like giving the others the opportunity to see who you really are. But if you write about someone else, you’ll just alter others’ perceptions about that person. And maybe that person’s perception about themselves. And it doesn’t sound right…

Then I thought I could write about us. About what it is, what it was, what I’m hoping it will be. But again, I gave up on that idea. Cause I doubt people would like to hear about things that you share only with that one person, situations that only the two of you understand. The special moments should be kept just between you, not shared with the whole world. Plus you wouldn’t really feel the urge to share those things. (although, of course, you can still write about them). Cause you’d be living them with that person, so why would you want to look like you’re bragging with what you have? Or, in case of a break up, how many people do you think would like to read about what could have been, but, oh, you see, the fate was against us… It would be wrong. I know I’m supposed to write what I feel and not what I want people to hear – and I consider myself quite good at that – but still, you can’t live if others aren’t aware of your presence. Or perhaps you can, but that’s not the point. If you want to feel that ‘you can never die’, then the others need to have contact with ‘you’, the one from my words, even though some of them won’t know you’re there. And if they shouldn’t hear about a couple’s story, it means that’s not the right way to do it. So I think that if I, as a writer, fall in love with you, I won’t write directly about you, us, my perception about you, us, my plans or hopes regarding you, us. But still, I believe the quote is true.

You will not die. But you won’t remain alive in my words, either. Don’t expect to live happily ever after in my words. You will not live at all, actually – cause this isn’t about you, it’s about me. Then how can you still be present in my writings, without anything actually being about you? Well, it’s possible. Cause if I fall in love with you (and I fall, cause that’s our assumption-

Actually let’s have a break for some sentences or so. Cause I read the quote again, and I remembered about my soon-to-come Maths exam, which I should be revising for instead of writing this. Or I can do both, it’s not that hard and I’m sure you can follow. Sooo we have a conditional statement here: if p then q. We know that p, the hypothesis, implies the conclusion q. I also remember that not q implies not p. Which would be that You can die at some point, if a writer doesn’t fall in love with you. Well, the thing is you will die anyway, at some point. But it’s nicer to know that someone falls in love with you beforehand, and that someone could as well be a writer. But you’ll definitely die.
Still I would add some other conditions: if a writer falls in love with you, AND you have such a huge impact on her, so that you can actually change the way she thinks and sees the world, AND she has the opportunity to write about all these, and not about butterflies and sunsets (not that I’m against them, but you can’t probably live through them), AND you can actually see fragments of yourself amongst her words, THEN indeed you will never die πŸ™‚

Cause if she falls in love with you, but that’s all, full stop, then she may as well find some other inspiration. (she will find it anyway, sooner or later). Or if she falls is love with you, but she writes only about tangible things, or about feelings that may or may not dissappear at some point, then you will most probably die with them. So the thing is that having a writer who falls in love with you is, unfortunately, not guaranteed for your immortality. She needs to fall in love with your soul. (If she falls in love with you, but not for your soul, you may still find a perishing version of yourself amongst her love stories, but I don’t see that exactly as immortality). You don’t have to change her, but she will do it by herself, if you deserve the changes. She will steal thoughts from you, ideas and ways of seeing life, and then she’ll get used to them as if they were hers from the beginning. And that’s where you want to be, with a part of your mind into hers. And there you have it. Immortality πŸ™‚ Even when the bond between you is becoming thinner, you’ll know that there’s enough of you left there. And then she may start writing. And you’ll see your perceptions tangled with hers, you’ll see how things that you thought only you could understand, or not even you, are being explained as seen through her own eyes. You’ll see yourself in her words, you’ll see the impact that you had, you’ll see how you actually are, but without her describing you, you’ll see what that quote meant, that you can never die.

And now I’ll close the bracket and get back to the previous idea.) Cause if I fall in love with you, I won’t let you die. And even if it will be the case that after I finish falling, I’ll get up again and continue alone on my own path in life, I still won’t let that part of you die, cause that part of you is part of me now, and that part of me would die if I tried to stifle it in order to keep it silent. So I slowly write it down, particles of it hidden amongst my own thoughts, older and newer.

Just step back a little, but think closer. Closer to my way of thinking, I mean. Do you understand it, now? That’s why you’ll never die. Cause you found the key. You found a writer who was once falling in love with you. And you were lucky enough that when your paths split apart, she had already copied a part of your thoughts, ideas, personality, and pasted it amongst her owns.

And indeed you are lucky, and I almost envy you. Cause I know the feeling of influencing someone, I’ve been in your shoes, I had for some short moments my own ‘writer’ who was in love with me. But this doesn’t make me immortal, cause as I’ve said above, being a writer is not enough, and there are other conditions that have to be met. But I know I enjoyed the moments I felt immortal, and now it’s my turn to do the same.

I wonder, still,
Who wants
to live
forever…?

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14 thoughts on “The Key to Immortality

  1. Brooke H says:

    hey I’d like to say that this is by far one of my favorite post by you. I’m not not a writer at all. I was searching for encouragement blogs… And I happen to find yours… & it’s great I just went through a really tough break up that requires much detail to explain but sounds like you went through a rough patch in your life at one point and let me tell you your blogs just show how powerful and intelegent and how much you’ve learned from your past. When I’m done reading them I’m completely mind blown. I’d like to say thanks so much!

    • Hi Brooke, I’m glad you like my blog, it’s always nice to hear that what I write may help the readers in a way πŸ™‚ I’m sorry about your break-up, I know how difficult it is to get through such a stage in your life, but unfortunately it’s necessary sometimes. And maybe you can’t see it now, but after a while you may look back and realise everything happened for a reason. Don’t feel discouraged if you can’t see it now, I was in your shoes so I know it takes time. I’ve started this blog to represent the voice I needed to hear in such moments, and I can say it helped me a lot (this is also my favourite post btw) – so even if you’re not a writer, you may want to try and write your thoughts down and see if it works πŸ™‚ in the meantime, be strong as you are not alone in this! thanks again for the message, I’ll soon move my blog to an own domain, http://www.violetraindrops.co.uk in case you’ll want to read more, and you can also find me on Facebook!

      • Brooke H says:

        okay thanks so much! Keep writing its wonderful & really gets me thinking more about myself and life & I’m sure others think this as well πŸ™‚

      • Brooke H says:

        If you don’t mind me asking why’d you break up, & how’d you over come it? If you have yet or still are… Just by writing???(if you dont want to publicly share I get it)

      • I don’t mind publicly talking about it, but I still wait for a time when I’ll have a clearer mind in order to create a blog post abou all of it… In a nutshell, as it’s been over a year since the breakup, I slowly started to come over it by accepting his reasons for breaking up with me… It’s not easy to accept these reasons, but it depends for each situation – in my case, I couldn’t beat a former 7-year relationship with his ex, so they went back together. Of course it’s more complicated xD But the thing is we are still really good friends (I know, some people tend to argue about friendships after relationships) but in a way this also helped me; by started seeing him as a friend, I slowly got used to him like that πŸ˜• And apart from writing, focusing on my work also helped me (sometimes) not to think about him, in the post-breakup stage, after loads of crying etc. But after a while I also started looking back, and now I know we couldn’t probably be together even if it wasn’t about his ex. He’s happy now and I’m happy for him, although I’m single and I still do care about him. I’ve tried another relationship recently but it didn’t work out and it’s fine, I understood it’s no rush actually with being in a relationship πŸ™‚ Going out with your friends also helps, and in general to have someone to talk to – but the sooner you accept the reality, the better. He may always have his special place in your heart, but despite this, other suitable guys are out there for you. Being the first breakup (in my case) made things harder, but I’m afraid overall there’s no secret receipt for getting over it, just take as much time as you feel you need… You’ve actually inspired me with a topic for another article, so thanks for that πŸ˜€ but right now it’s quite late night here xD So I hope you found my little story useful, feel free to ask anything else and I’ll respond in the morning!

      • Brooke H says:

        wow I’m honored I inspired you to write something… But anyways your break up I’m really sorry to hear, my first break up as well was my first real love. Best time of my life. But I just kind of look at it as I love him so much if it’s meant to be it WILL be. & Happen sooner or later in the future. Although no one could ever relate to my break up. I’m up against God. My ex claims that God was calling him to be a priest rather than being with a girl and getting married in life. It’s been tough lately but I was just snooping around for inspiring stuff to help me along my journey. Bc there’s only so much that can help someone who’s in my position bc it’s not like he want to be with someone else he wants to be with God. But searching around for inspiring articles/blogs. Yours by far has been the best. I still continue to talk to him every now and then. It’s more me telling him how I miss him, and how his day was me asking alll the question bc I care so much about him. & I do believe the friends after relationship as well… My parents think I’m an idiot for it… But it really is helpful in a way. Not sure if your spiritual but just know Gods watching down on you and knows what he’s doing and is doing it for a reason. πŸ™‚

      • Hey Brooke, thanks for sharing your story. I’ve thought about it and indeed it sounds complicated, but I also believe in God and I am sure everything happens for a reason, and He’ll make sure we are on the right path in our lives even if we don’t realise this now πŸ™‚ I think it’s fine to keep the friendship with your ex, regardless what your parents think about that, but always be honest to yourself and realise if this causes you more harm rather than good. I mean, the sooner you accept the reality of his decision and learn to be ok with it, the better. I imagine it was not ab easy decision for him either, and I’m sure he wants the best for you, even though your paths may not be the same in the future. But as you said, if you’re truly meant to be together, you will. Just try not to think too much about the possible future (i know it’s easier to say than done). I know that one of the hardest decisions when it comes to the end of a relationship is whether to try and convince the other it’s worth staying together, or to realise it’s time to back off and accept the reality. I’ve been there and it’s a tough decision, but in the end there will always be 2 persons involved in it, not one. And about my inspiration to write articles (when I do have time), it tends to come from so many random sources, so thanks again for being part of it ^_^ I’ll let you know when I’ll post it, after exams most probably… After all, there are lots of other important things in life right now than the love life, right? (although I admit everything seems to work better when you know someone truly loves you and is there for you)

      • Brooke H says:

        yeah when we were together he was my world sadly I revolved everything around him.. Which is probably why the break up is much tougher than it needs to be. It’s just sad to think the love of your life could just walk away so easily. & im dying inside trying not to pull him back to me.(even though I’ve tried lol he just can’t and doesn’t want to there’s not much to do anymore) But it is gonna be tough to start a new one with someone bc when I start relationships I start thinking about the future and if I can not picture myself marrying them in the future I realize I’m just wasting my time. & with him I knew I wasn’t, we both knew. Break ups suck.. But sometime you’ve just got to remind your self God is always here for you no matter what. But he made me realize more about life & me, made me understand me better. Which I can’t thank him enough for that. This blog you wrote just is perfect I did indeed steal his “ideas and thoughts” he was a huge influence on my life. But I can’t wait to see what else you write about next bc they inspire me to be better and not be sad and stand a little taller day by day. πŸ™‚

      • I know the feeling of almost begging him to take me back haha… To start again, cause we could have a future etc… I know it’s hard to decide if you want tk lower your self esteem and try to convince him, or keep your head up. Yeah, break up suck, but I do believe that God has a plan for everyone, and we will meet the right person one day πŸ˜€ until then, all we can do is try to become a better version of ourselves, even though that means to get ideas and thoughts from those who perhaps hurt us, but also thought us. As you said, with such an experience you learn more and more, cause after all everything should be considered a lesson for the future. I’m glad the blog inspires you to be better ^_^ as I don’t have much time for blogging right now, I do post once every few days on my Facebook profile quotes and photos I find inspirational (even though some are clichΓ©). It’s nice to start my day with such a message, or to look on my profile when I feel low… Have a look if you want to, and stay strong for better times! There’s a reason dor everything πŸ™‚ https://m.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100008354018353

      • Brooke H says:

        I agree totally, thanks for listening! I just added you πŸ™‚ I trust in God 100% to help me through this, I will pray for you. Thanks so much for listening and taking your time and responding back means a lot πŸ™‚

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