A couple days ago I found out about an opportunity to receive a scholarship for my studies. As I was eligible, my enthusiasm was pretty high until I saw the application form – all of them referring to why I chose this domain (computer science) and why others should persuade such a career. And I stopped. ‘If only they asked about writing’, I thought. But oh well, what if someone does ask about the reason behind writing? Why do I write? Why do I have a blog? Why should someone else start doing the same?
I realised this isn’t too easy either. I explained some ideas in my previous posts, my first one and the one about writing. But another short post can’t do any harm. I write because I enjoy writing. I honestly like it. No one forces me to, no one pays me to do it, no one gives me a prize for any post I publish here or somewhere else. It’s only me with myself, plus those of you who read this and make me realise my writing isn’t in vane (or is it?).
Usually I write because I have something to say. Some ideas, some thoughts, something unimportant and common, something unique. It can be anything, really. Anything I consider it’s worth sharing. And I would share it verbally as well, if only I could find someone who’s actually listening. ‘Cause that’s another reason for writing: no one’s listening, or if they are, they don’t understand completely. Perhaps they’re listening just in order to please you, or out of respect, or they’re just bored, or perhaps they are indeed listening but they’re not responding the way you wish someone, anyone, would respond. Perhaps they find what you’re saying too boring, perhaps you talk too fast for the others to keep up, perhaps they have their own ideas and are too busy to listen to your thoughts. And that’s ok.
I recently discovered something I knew already, but I had forgotten. That is, that everyone has a story. You just need to learn how to listen to it, how to approach that person who you thought you could never learn how to interact with. And honestly, I was surprised. I realised you can’t blame others for not listening to you if you are not listening to them either. Everyone has something to discuss with you, if you give them the chance. And who knows, perhaps by listening to them, you’ll find someone capable of listening to you as well. Until then, just write.
Write to prove yourself what you’re capable of. Write to give yourself a sense of listening, write to clear your thoughts and order your ideas. Write for yourself, write for others, write anything as long as you enjoy it. And there’s always the problem of having too little time, of course. But not even that has stopped me from deciding to participate in a writing competition at the university (details soon – if I ever finish the story). Cause I enjoy it more that anything.
Now all I have to do is rewrite this from the perspective of a computer scientist instead of a writer. It shouldn’t be that hard, right?.. What am I after all?
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